Fast Food Breakdown

This morning I was checking my bank account balances, as people do, and I decided to flip back a few pages through my spending history and see what I used to spend so much money on, and the answer surprised me. I knew I was eating out a lot more than I should have been. I was aware of that fact. But seeing the numbers and the actual monetary amounts I was spending on the "convenience" and "easiness" of fast food amazed and sickened me. No wonder I was sliding into the realms of unhealthy obesity at an alarming rate... I was eating enough fast food to feed a whole family in a single day!

Here's an example of a few sections of my bank statement reflecting the fast food I was eating on a daily basis.

There were plenty of days where I would eat at two different restaurants on the same day! Now, I know that debit card transactions don't always go through on the day they actually occurred, but I know I was eating at different restaurants on the same day. My days literally consisted of sleeping until an hour before work, rolling my gelatanous ass out of bed, showering, and then grabbing lunch on the way to work. Four hours later, at dinnertime, I would leave work and go to a different restaurant, or sometimes even the same restaurant, for dinner. Then I would come home and eat a meal right before bed from my refrigerator.

I just didn't care, I was out of control. I couldn't see anything beyond the wrapped fast food in front of my face as I was choking it down. Looking back, I can't believe I let myself get to that place. Not only for my health's sake, but for my wallet's sake. I was throwing away money as fast as I could eat those Big Macs and Subway sandwiches. I was handing over my hard-earned cash to gain pounds of fat on my body.

Never again. Eating out is a terrible thing, not when I can make cheaper and healthier foods right here at home. Food that makes me feel good after eating it, food that doesn't give me a quick sugar rush and then a devastating crash twenty minutes later, food that is filling and satisfying and that adds to my body's nutrients and needs. Food that is meant to be eaten, not food that is wrapped in paper, thrown in a bag, and shoveled down my throat while I drive to work. There was no love and attention put into that food, there is nothing valuable or nutritious in that food.

Seeing this drove the point home for me. What I am doing is a complete change from where I was, and I know I can't and won't go back to that place. It wasn't good for me, my body, my environment, my finances, or my well-being. I'm saddened that I didn't see that fault in where I was much sooner, but at least I am doing better now.

I've come a long way and have a long way to go, but I'm not turning back.