Ghosts, Ghouls, and Gaining Weight. :(

I love how the dying leaves smell. I love the way they playfully dance along the sidewalk, so beautiful and colorful and elegant, even after life has fled them. I love the healthy crunch under my toe as I walk over them. I love the windy weather and bright blue skies overhead. I love the thrill of wondering what ghoul or ghostie may be waiting to jump out from around the next corner. I love the fall.

J'aime l'automne. Oui, j'aime beaucoup l'automne.

The fall is my favorite time of the year. Halloween is my favorite holiday. Everything about this time of the year makes me smile, breathe in deeply through my nose, and let out the breath slowly and calmly. The environment available in Autumn soothes me, even though working full-time and going to school full-time can be incredibly arduous. But as soon as I walk out of a building into a crisp Autumn breeze, the worries and stresses seem to be able to melt away.

I wish I could say the same about the pounds around my waist...

Unfortunately, due to my insane daily schedule, working out has been pushed to the back burner. So has grocery shopping and cooking... Unfortunately, for the past month I've been neglecting to work out and neglecting to avoid fast food drive-thrus. Honestly, it's the only way I've been able to eat, seeing as how I literally go from school to work every single day. I'm determined to break this vicious cycle before it allows any more pounds to make their way back onto my body.

I know I've gained weight since school started. Honestly I don't know how much exactly because I'm terrified to step onto a scale. I'm terrified to see how far I've actually let myself go. This week is the end of that cycle, as I said. This week is the end of letting all my progress slip out the window. I can't go back to where I was. I simply can't and won't let that happen.

Determination will squeeze that extra time into each day where I can make home-made meals and fit in a work out every day. I will do this and be successful. I'm more than ready to lose more weight and get healthier! I can't keep letting my schedule hold myself back. The buck stops here!