So nothing is really happening in my life beyond go to work, go to school, wash, rinse, repeat. I'm getting tiresome of my job, sometimes my man wears me down, school is a bit wearisome... I never get to work out, or make wholesome delicious meals anymore...
I just feel myself becoming numb and just sliding through the world unnoticed. Save for a few highlights on the weekends (like last weekend where I got my car and went to see Dracula with my mom and bestie). my weeks are uneventful, unfun, and not really worth getting out of bed for...
The highlight of my day today? Being able to eat a ham sandwich I made for lunch. It felt so good to eat food that I didn't overpay for and that I made with my own hands. It was a simple ham sandwich on wheat bread with cheese and mustard... but I made it, and that felt good. Tomorrow I plan on making a shrimp salad sandwich and soup for lunch and salsa chicken burritos for dinner.
However, as I just remembered, I wanted to go get my oil changed tomorrow after school... that could cut out my lunch-making time! :( -sigh- I just want to be able to make all my own meals and exercise everyday... why is the world so against me? You may wonder why I don't just exercise at work, like I used to... well, work has been flooding me with a ton of projects, so I hardly have time to breathe, let alone work out... I usually work through my lunch break, I can't work through my lunch break if I'm downstairs hitting the elliptical... Also, if I'm not working through my lunch break, I'm usually doing homework and many times, it's the only time I have to do homework!
But I need to take time for myself to better myself. Starting tomorrow night's shift, I'm going to go back to working out every night on my lunch hour. It's ridiculous that I never have time to make myself feel good anymore. Maybe that's selfish, but I need to get back into exercising. I feel weight slowly making it's acquaintence again with my body and I just can't have it. No way, Jose.
So in celebration of my new car, I will push myself harder to lose more weight and get into even better shape! I need to stop using work and school as excuses and get back into making my heart beat rapidly and sweat pour off my face! I'm looking forward to those adrenaline rushes!
Random side note:
My french prof got quite close to me during a writing exercise. I even did the cheerleader girl cute giggle... you know the one, usually accompanied by a hair twirl and slight blushing of the cheeks... He's an attractive guy in a hipster kind of way, and his accent is fun, of course... we were writing our answers on paper to a question he gave us and he was reading it upside down, then he came to stand behind me and put his hand on the back of my chair, against my back, and leaned in to talk into my ear. His words were jumbling around in my head, getting shuffled by my accelerated heartbeat, and I just giggled and he asked if I understood him and I could hear the smirk in his voice, and I said no, and he explained further and then moved away. I was smiling like an idiot, I'm sure, but I could smell him after he was gone. Not in a bad way, either! LOL.
It's been stuck in my head all day!
So there's a lesson... a small gesture you may do that means absolutely nothing and you thought nothing of it, could be affecting someone's entire day in a positive or a negative way! So be conscious of yourself and what sort of signals you may be sending! :P I know he wasn't sending any signals, but it was nice to daydream for just a second that he might have been... I must admit, my boobies look hot today in the top I'm wearing... maybe he just wanted a better view, LOL. I've never seen him lean that way over anyone else in the class!
Am I crushing on teachers again!?!? That was so 2006... :P
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