New Body, New Me Initiative
For the past few weeks I have wandered pretty listlessly through life, badgered constantly by a heavy cloud that seems to follow me around, relentlessly, wherever I go. Even into my house, most especially into my house, to hover so close its suffocating me, as I crawl into bed to sleep at night. Depression is not something I like to allow into my life. I banish those dark fears in my head, banish them behind empty laughter and half-bright smiles. I don't want people to know I'm hurting. I want to be strong, happy, and healthy, but sometimes... that dark impenetrable cloud just won't go away.
But determination wells within me because my skin yearns for the sun again. I'm not a person accustomed to being in darkness always. I need sunlight, I need fresh air, I need joy. And now is that time. I'm taking back what was mine. I'm taking back my own pride, my own satisfaction, my own joy! I'm not letting a little heartbreak, a few detrimental blows to my self-esteem and ego hold me down and break my stride. Baby, I'm strutting back into my own limelight. I need more positive energy into my life and the easiest way to find that?
By being happy and healthy, of course! Healthiness leads to happiness and vice versa. When the body is healthy, the mind can be happy, and there's no other way around that. I can see my achievements slipping from my grasp and I simply can't let that happen. I'm not ready to be fat, ugly, gross, and disappointed in myself. I'm ready to gain back what I have achieved and move ahead, move forward, move toward a new body and a new me.
Thus begins the New Body, New Me Initiative. Phase Two of the Happy Healthy Gina plan was a flop. I didn't stick to any of my goals, I wasn't successful. So I need a new mind-set, a new place to race toward, a new day to begin! And here I am. School and work have dominated the last few weeks of my life, and lazily, I have allowed that to be so. But there are still a few hours in my days that I'm letting go to waste. Yes, I need time to do homework and time to also relax. But I'm taking too much time for the relaxing bit and not enough time for the homework bit and DEFINITELY not enough time for the happiness/healthiness bits...
I have to take back my time, take back my drive, and take back what is rightfully mine: success.
My plan is to cut out fast food and sodas completely, sticking to home-made meals and water to drink. I also plan to fit in at least one workout a day, two workouts a day on Fridays, Saturdays, and Sundays.
Monday/Wednesdays - treadmill or elliptical night
Tuesday/Thursdays - Workout DVD (or walk/jog, weather permitting) morning / treadmill or elliptical night
Friday/Saturday/Sunday - Workout DVD (or walk/jog) morning / treadmill or elliptical at night
